Flutters
So I’m pretty much over the nausea, gagging and vomiting. Most people would be thrilled. But oddly enough, I miss it. This is my least favorite time of pregnancy. I’m always ready for the morning sickness to go away, but then when it does, I long for it. You see, it’s too early to feel consistent movement. Every now and then, if I’m super still I may feel a flutter… but not always. So I’m stuck in this land of limbo where there isn’t much sign at all that I’m pregnant (besides what my scale and clothes tell me). I can’t wait for the day that the kicks are so strong that even the girls will be able to feel them. I know that will be weeks from now though.
Sometimes we get discouraged when our faith is like that. When times are tough, it brings us to our knees. Often when times are hardest it is when we feel closest to God. We can feel God’s comfort when we’re in the midst of suffering and see His love shown through the body of believers reaching out and lifting us up.
When things settle down, we fall back into life and sometimes don’t feel the same closeness with the God who comforts. That’s not to say we never hear from God when things are going well. We’ve felt an incredible sense of His peace and presence as we’ve been preparing for ministry… but I’ve known the silence too. It’s during the times of silence it’s easy to turn away and to get busy with everyday life.
Instead, take the time to be still. Listen. Sometimes when I’m super still I feel a flutter… or hear a still small voice. It is the same voice that has spoken words of comfort to me. It is the same voice that has clearly guided me in all my major life decisions. We are called to seek. Sometimes we seek out of desperation, sometimes we seek out of awe, sometimes we just need to seek out of obedience. And sometimes when we seek, day after day- the voice and presence becomes stronger and stronger until even others around us can see God speaking into our lives.
Sometimes we get discouraged when our faith is like that. When times are tough, it brings us to our knees. Often when times are hardest it is when we feel closest to God. We can feel God’s comfort when we’re in the midst of suffering and see His love shown through the body of believers reaching out and lifting us up.
When things settle down, we fall back into life and sometimes don’t feel the same closeness with the God who comforts. That’s not to say we never hear from God when things are going well. We’ve felt an incredible sense of His peace and presence as we’ve been preparing for ministry… but I’ve known the silence too. It’s during the times of silence it’s easy to turn away and to get busy with everyday life.
Instead, take the time to be still. Listen. Sometimes when I’m super still I feel a flutter… or hear a still small voice. It is the same voice that has spoken words of comfort to me. It is the same voice that has clearly guided me in all my major life decisions. We are called to seek. Sometimes we seek out of desperation, sometimes we seek out of awe, sometimes we just need to seek out of obedience. And sometimes when we seek, day after day- the voice and presence becomes stronger and stronger until even others around us can see God speaking into our lives.
"...For we walk by faith, not by sight..." 2 Corinthians 5:7
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